DEBT RESULT! AT THE END OF THE ROAD. ( 3 )

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After all that strugle in my life I was totaly hopeless and helpless,only was going on my mind was to suicide myself in the place where nobody will found my body. 

I was planning to find a hidden place,I have see that the only place that can be my body everlasting home was a shaft in the old gold mine who was not working anymore.Now I was quite I was sitting alone most of time,and I have avoid to have a girl-friend,my only sorrow was my son. 

WHEN MY BROTHER AND MY SISTER INVITE ME TO GO AND VISIT OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS I DID N'T GO WITH THEM.It was the end of my life now,inside me there was no more humanity but a ghost who was already death just waiting to be buried. And to run away from debts and misarable life of working 60hours/week for R150.00/week.THERE WAS NOTHING BELONG TO ME AS I WAS LOST EVERYTHING.Now my problem was my soul,if I hide my body in the old shaft and suicide myself,my body was going to return to the dust and my spirit was going to return to God,BUT WHAT ABOUT MY SOUL?

DEBT RESULT.'ALONE IN THE WILDERNIS'.(5)

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After failing to organize my financially life.I was under a serious deppression.It was look like I live in my own land.I was always thinking about my debt.Also the bank which I've owed was calling maybe 3 times/day,asking about their money,as I was unable to pay them.I'VE I-APPLIED FOR DEBT REVIEW,BUT ALL MY ATTEMPT DID NOT HELP ME.

It was a sad moment in my life when I decide to leave my home and my family as there was no more peace between me and my wife.I have left my only child behind me to try to solve my debt problem.I HAVE STAYED WITH ANOTHER FAMILY,THEY HAVE GAVE ME A ROOM.

But I have moved there after a certain problem.I have also leave my job.I have moved from Mpumalanga Province to Gauteng Province with hope to get a better a job with better salary to settle my debt.But unfortunately I was unlucky to find a good job!

NOW I WAS IN THE DESERT ALONE NO-ONE WAS NEXT TO ME. NO JOB,NO MONEY,NO HOPE.I WAS ASKING MYSELF WHY THE LORD NOT TAKING MY SOUL!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iMHcFOKkLFs&list=PLETqQkGMHNDwU0cFt8fS4BGn-w9nj-Ijt

GOD SUSTAIN POWER IN THEMIDST OF TRAGEDY

LIVE ME ALONE MY BROTHER ADDICTION,I M SICK & TIRED !

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AS I was growing spiritual I was learning new thing day after day.In Genesis 27:40 it say 

'...you will serve your brother.BUT WHEN YOU GROW RESTLESS you will throw his yoke from OFF your neck' .And in JOHN 8:34 it say '...every one who sins is a slave of sin'.IN MY TEENS I WAS SICK SO I WENT 2 SANGOMA 2 BE HEALED,but one night  I wake up I find my self with a strong cigarette desire,when I TOLD the sangoma about that,the sangoma said it was my ancestors who was want 2 take care of my life so they was looking to use cigarette as a point of contact.I START 2 SMOKE for more than 25 years without a problem but after loosing every thing in my life I'VE look what was taking my money so,I find out it was cigarette & head ache powder.

IT STARTED AS MY BROTHER WHO WAS LOOKING 2 HELP ME  BUT AT LAST HE BECAME MY BOSS 2 RULE OVER MY LIFE.

example;IF your parent build a room & give you that room so that you can make money with that room by renting it to other people,so that you can get some money to make living.BUT INSTEAD OF THAT YOU TAKE SOMEBODY TO LIVE IN YOUR ROOM,WITHOUT RENTING,BUT YOU ARE THE ONE NOW WHO MUST PAY RENT & MAINTAIN THE LIFE OF THAT PERSON,WHILE HE IS NOT SICK,JUST BECAUSE HE WANT TO OPPRESS YOU.

That is what happen with us & addiction we keep the desire of addiction inside us working hard to get money to feed that fallen evil spirit,inside us some we need to stole others money so that we can get money 2 fed our addiction,who is just looking to destroy our financially,and lastly stole our everlasting life. 

THANKS TO THE LORD WHO HAVE OPENED MY EYES TO SEE THAT EVIL SPIRIT WHO WAS CONTINUE DESTROYING MY LIFE Day after Day our GOD IS A GOOD GOD! A REAL MIRACLE MAKER!